Phew...

Wow it’s been a while since I’ve written anything. I think the last time I wrote I was about to disappear into the abyss that is grad school. And that I did. Well, I have emerged for air, gasping, and choking, but still alive! First quarter done. And, man it was no joke, I had a design assignment right out the gate, which was an amazing process, and I’m really happy with the outcome. I’m going to enjoy this time off, but I’m looking forward to getting back to it in January. Especially since I’m assisting my professor on a show he’s designing at the Denver Center. Hello friends! Here I come! I’m so excited, I can’t wait to see everyone I miss so so much, but I’m also really excited to be returning in a professional capacity. It’s kind of a bucket list thing, well actually, on my bucket list is to design at the Denver Center, but I would be happy with this if it came down to it.

Speaking of the bucket list, which I know makes some people uncomfortable to hear/read me talk about, but it’s a really great thing! Knowing what I want to really achieve or do or see has been such an adventure! There are some basics on the list, but there are small things that change day to day, there’s no pressure, which some might think there would be. I love it.

Though, there are the few that seem impossible, or difficult is a better word, and others that are completely dependant on chance. So I’m not sure how to go about those. The difficult ones involve money, and me not having any, but really those are less important. I would love to travel abroad, but I can always find enjoyment in local travel, and in my truthful opinion, Nor Cal is the best place on Earth! But the other tricky ones, the ones left up to fate, are a little hard to deal with, and considering the record I have with fate, I’m not very optimistic. I want to fall in love again before I die. It feels like a lot to ask for, but it always seemed so easy when I was younger. Maybe because I wasn’t worried about it, maybe because I was less picky, more confident, more trusting, not sick.

Speaking of being sick, I hardly think of it these days, except for the days like today when I’m sitting in the chemo clinic, in a row of chairs filled with people plugged into IV pumps. Those days bum me out, because it brings me back to reality. Even though there is a strange comfort I’ve come to feel being here, which is a little disturbing in it’s own way. I’m due for scans, so I can’t say exactly where I’m at with things, but I feel good.

I do, however, have to find balance in my new crazy life. I’ve gone from a nearly sedentary life style, sleeping in, taking naps, eating as much as I wanted… to all nighters, running on coffee, I even had a bag of cheetos for breakfast one morning… that I found on the floor of my car as I drove to school. So stress release, sleep, and a healthy diet are very important goals for the near future. Exercise, though, has not been a problem. Over the past few months I’ve lost nearly 20 lbs. I walk everywhere, climb stairs, and walk some more, both around Davis, and in my new hometown of Sacramento.

I’m loving living in Sac, though I’m rarely there. My roommate and I became fast friends, and it has been endless adventures. The drive to Davis isn’t too bad, worse on the way home at night, especially since I can see Sacramento in the distance 5 minutes after leaving Davis, but don’t reach it for another 15. But it’s nice being in a city again, though I am longing for parts of my country life, and am beginning to think about looking into bringing Mia to Davis. Even though, I think she is probably quite happy where she is, I miss her! And My Lola, who comes down and spends time with me, and even goes to school!

So I think that just about covers everything! I’ve actually, surprisingly, have been really inspired to create art, which has always been difficult for me, so I look forward to writing more often, and sharing the other pieces I create, as well!

Tchau!